Half-Empty Notebooks

There are too many notebooks that have been started and not completed. I have a bad habit of starting projects and not finishing them. I can’t tell you of all of the commitments that I started and prided myself with and just let them go, leaves in the wind. If it wasn’t for Alayna, I don’t know when I would have started writing again, if I’m going to be honest with you.

It’s not like I don’t enjoy writing, but I guess I can talk about the stuff that I started and never finished.

I have a notebook on my desk that I used to journal about how life was going. It started around August and got through Mid-September, based off of some self-improvement videos that I had been watching on YouTube. I figured that if I decorated it with a sticker of Deku from My Hero Academia and some of the stamps that I got from the Crocker Art Museum on there as well. I stopped writing in there as it was too time consuming, since I literally write slow. I decided to transition to my laptop instead for writing.

As for my other notebook, I think I finished it. Actually, I had two. One of them I had shared a lot of my writing within a small friend group that shared a notebook between each other. The other one was my personal one, where I wrote a lot back then about my feelings, but I was in a darker place, darker than where I’m at now. I often referred to how I was feeling based off of The World Ends With You. I was lucky to at least have that aid me in my endeavors of sadness and despair. What does suck, however, is that the notebook where I wrote down a lot of my personal secrets I lost on the way home from school. I tried to retrace my steps on where it was, but it seems that someone took it. Now someone is running around town with my darkest secrets.

But yeah, now I do a lot of my writing on my laptop as it is easier to collaborate and share my works between devices and people. I still use my notebook, or at least the notes app on my phone, to start and plan out ideas while I am on the go. I also use it to get my thoughts out and organize how I want to structure further projects in the works. If you wanna see some of them, consider going to my personal blog, Halfway to Forever.

But yeah, that’s a quick post about me and a few of my half-empty notebooks.

-J.E.