Time is a slow and steady suffocation. It took a little bit before I realized that I didn’t know what it looked like, to be sorry for taking up air. I apologized for being an inconvenience, yes. But the depth of my pain grows deeper as I reach for the light. I was so creative, … Continue reading Choking.
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My Friends, There Is Nothing Left For You But Ice.
“The devil will show himself to you, unchristly one. For if you do not spend your lifetime with complete devotion, you are his, and you will be consumed in the lake of fire.” I used to fear this out of respect for those around me, But now I truly believe my friend, that if such … Continue reading My Friends, There Is Nothing Left For You But Ice.
Space
I was born into this world with miles between everyone else and me. No comfort, no dependence, I was born in a glass box. Three sides are filled with mirrors, while only one side serves as window to the outside. I used to think for the longest time that I was all alone, like, the … Continue reading Space
What’s Your Definition of Success?
In this world we live in, everything is marketed to you with the assumption that you value convenience over anything else. So far, the America I know has shown time and time again that this is in fact all anybody cares about. No one tells you that if you want to change, that if you … Continue reading What’s Your Definition of Success?
Happy Birthday
I’ve written countless drafts about you. A lot of them seem to state the same facts about you, because the one gift I want to give is honesty through my words about you. Writing about you is hard, because I know you know yourself well. What can I show you through a different set of … Continue reading Happy Birthday
I Am Listening.
I spent the first two years of my life screaming. My body was in pain, my stomach wasn’t equipped to handle the harsh wasteland it found itself in. Honestly, I feel like screaming is an appropriate reaction to existing. When I was done screaming, all I could do was watch the world pass me by, … Continue reading I Am Listening.
Why Are We Still Here?
I write this because Black Lives Matter. I write this because I am exhausted. Placerville’s attitude has worn me down. This city’s apathy feeds my rage increasingly with each passing day. I am fed up with my “friends” on instagram and snapchat. I am tired of my coworkers. I am tired of the people that … Continue reading Why Are We Still Here?
The Push Forward
8:40am, May 29th. 2020. It’s been one hour since I opened the store. I’m scrolling through Twitter and seeing all of the media supporting the #BlackLivesMatter topic. I’m liking and retweeting. I’m a little late to the conversation, but nonetheless my opinion is still important. As long as my words keep the conversation going, that’s … Continue reading The Push Forward
If you haven’t seen my blue flame, do you know me?
I feel it happen so suddenly sometimes that my stomach lurches with lethal amounts of discomfort. That intense feeling of nausea fades now. Fear has loosened his grip on the core of my brain; I’ve never felt more brave. What happens? The Azul pigmented fragments entrapped in a ring normally swallowed by the pupil hastily … Continue reading If you haven’t seen my blue flame, do you know me?
are you happy now?
I did feel good, it wasn’t that long ago. I can still feel it. For the past few days, my mind has me held captive in a courtroom. The vicious judge mercilessly tries me every waking hour. Every thought I have, everything I say or do, it’s all up for trial. I remember when I … Continue reading are you happy now?
Feeling Drives Work 