I am whatever you say I am. Maybe you think I’m going to fill eminem’s shoes and tell you that I swear I’m gonna be all of the worst things you all seem to spot in me. Ill be all these things because it will be torture for you. After all, the worst things in … Continue reading The Way I Am
Game Over
First off, I wanna say that this post was inspired by Alayna. We shared each other's playlists of our top 100 songs, as it is a good number to show our multiple tastes in music. For November, we decided to go with making our posts song name related, and discussing it. I haven't completely followed … Continue reading Game Over
Epiphany
I had an epiphany.... I wish that what follows that line is exactly what you would expect. I want you to be able to read all my words and I wish that every line could help you through your own tragedies. I wish that line was followed by telling you "I was a stupid kid" … Continue reading Epiphany
Movement
I don't like to initiate. Initiate can be anything, really. It really has to do with relatedness with others. If I don't know you very well, I do not want you in my space. I will physically move myself away from you or use my energy to build walls between us. And I think the … Continue reading Movement
Resilence
Resilence. Noun: the capacity to recover quickly from difficulties; toughness. Today I tried something different than my normal approaches to my day. It really began when I went out to practice driving this morning. I know that my emotions easily influence my mood, and I can't be a sad sack of potatoes when I'm driving, … Continue reading Resilence
Everybody Dies In Their Nightmares
Drifting, fading, shrinking. When the night terrors refuse to subside, I’m left trapped inside my miserable skull. I can’t do it. I can’t fight it. I wanna find a peace of mind, but I don’t feel strong enough. Not when peaceful sleep is often a rarity. I feel the fade and I suppose I’ll try … Continue reading Everybody Dies In Their Nightmares
Rise Again.
I know how it started. At least, think I do. I think I began to know too much. I started learning through trial and error that sometimes bad things happen repeatedly, and I can’t stop most of them. Then I remember those things I could have prevented, but didn’t. As I watch life pass by, … Continue reading Rise Again.
Another Saturday Night
These late nights just seem to blur together at this point in time. Too many times, I end up doing the same things, and I can't believe that I haven't noticed it yet. I've always prided myself cleaning before I leave, have some existential crisis, lament my life choices on the car ride home, resolve … Continue reading Another Saturday Night
What-If I Won the Lottery
I had a conversation with my coworkers about what we would do if we had won the lottery. The mood fit right to discuss it. I had been racking my brain, trying to stimulate myself awake with creative situations. When you are staring at a white wall all night, you start to drift off to … Continue reading What-If I Won the Lottery
the thing you can’t live without.
My Grandpa and my cat. It is that simple. unfortunately, both are living creatures, meaning that death has his mark on both. He will take them from me. In a matter of fact, about a month ago he came banging down my door. He tried to take my kitten. She's been with me for eight … Continue reading the thing you can’t live without.
Feeling Drives Work 