Happy Birthday

I’ve written countless drafts about you. A lot of them seem to state the same facts about you, because the one gift I want to give is honesty through my words about you. Writing about you is hard, because I know you know yourself well. What can I show you through a different set of … Continue reading Happy Birthday →

I Am Listening.

I spent the first two years of my life screaming. My body was in pain, my stomach wasn’t equipped to handle the harsh wasteland it found itself in. Honestly, I feel like screaming is an appropriate reaction to existing. When I was done screaming, all I could do was watch the world pass me by, … Continue reading I Am Listening. →

Is this me?

I do not remember how I got here. I stand surrounded by a maze of mirrors. I do not hate the girl I see with an ocean of blonde just a few shades darker than white stitched to her scalp. I feel bad for her. Her features do not belong on her round cherub angel … Continue reading Is this me? →

Visualize

"Take a deep breath and close your eyes," the leader tells us.And I obey. I need to close my eyes for once. A setting where I can let my guard down, in public? I'm so in for it.I position myself in my chair, firmly planting my feet onto the ground, and then lightening the pressure … Continue reading Visualize →

The Winds of Change Are Howling

Autumn leaves falling from their peak.Float ever so gently to the valley.Winds guide them to their end and beginning.End of the life they had devoted and cultivated,And beginning of a second chapter.Trees, generations blooming from the ground,Spring up diversity as we breathe in mixed air.Insects intermingle, spreading information and nutrients,spurring the development of life,and it's … Continue reading The Winds of Change Are Howling →

Spider

Eight legs. The average lifespan of these things vary way more than you would think. So, can I ask you, why did you move in? Could you sense that I wouldn’t want to kill you? Did you know that most likely I would consistently forget to trap you in some Tupperware and toss you out … Continue reading Spider →

Empty notebooks

I open you, and I slam you shut. You make me feel nothing but frustration now. You are too perfect, pages too white. I cannot be perfect in my word composition. I cannot lay out a thought for you without having so many mistakes shrieking in my face. You used to be my best friend. … Continue reading Empty notebooks →

Save myself

“I gave all my oxygen to people that could breatheI gave away my money and now we don’t even speak.I drove miles and miles, but would you do the same for me? Oh honestly?” . You’re speaking words masked with love, But I don’t feel warmth in your touch. It’s hard to believe what you … Continue reading Save myself →

All For Love

I wish I had the strength to continue writing about him in a poetic way, because maybe that would garner attention and love to me for writing something so romantic. It would keep the time I had with him in a neat little bubble that I could only look at with rose colored glasses. But, … Continue reading All For Love →

So Mean

It’s not getting better. It’s probably not a good thing for the surrounding environment around me to reflect the raging storm inside my brain. Yet, I love it. See, everything is gloomy and drowning while the leaves of the trees scream in vibrant colors before they shrivel up and fall away from their life giving … Continue reading So Mean →