Save myself

“I gave all my oxygen to people that could breatheI gave away my money and now we don’t even speak.I drove miles and miles, but would you do the same for me? Oh honestly?” . You’re speaking words masked with love, But I don’t feel warmth in your touch. It’s hard to believe what you … Continue reading Save myself →

All For Love

I wish I had the strength to continue writing about him in a poetic way, because maybe that would garner attention and love to me for writing something so romantic. It would keep the time I had with him in a neat little bubble that I could only look at with rose colored glasses. But, … Continue reading All For Love →

Everybody Dies In Their Nightmares

Drifting, fading, shrinking. When the night terrors refuse to subside, I’m left trapped inside my miserable skull. I can’t do it. I can’t fight it. I wanna find a peace of mind, but I don’t feel strong enough. Not when peaceful sleep is often a rarity. I feel the fade and I suppose I’ll try … Continue reading Everybody Dies In Their Nightmares →

Rise Again.

I know how it started. At least, think I do. I think I began to know too much. I started learning through trial and error that sometimes bad things happen repeatedly, and I can’t stop most of them. Then I remember those things I could have prevented, but didn’t. As I watch life pass by, … Continue reading Rise Again. →

Broken Pieces

Dear Nate, I don’t think there was ever a time in my life where I felt more distressed. The amount of pain that I felt was so far beyond unbearable. I was ready to dip into Death’s sweet nectar. I lost my sanity. I lost myself. I broke myself. I found you before I broke, … Continue reading Broken Pieces →

“Bite Your Tongue.”

I wish I could refuse to tell you about the things I hold so close to my chest. I’ll keep telling you that I’m trying my best. I give to the darkest of thoughts a room and they never check out. you will believe the lies. you think I’m different, good. that makes me want … Continue reading “Bite Your Tongue.” →

Paradise on Fire

I will never forget the conversation I had with a resident of Paradise, California. This is a true conversation that I had. I consciously chose to keep the name the same and any referenced dialogue the same. I do not have his expressed consent on posting this, so I will not fully describe what was … Continue reading Paradise on Fire →

Make A Wish

if I had one wish, right here, tonight, I don't know what I'd want. Staying up till 5 am is my new normal. that's quite a few 11:11 PMs that have drifted away right in front of me. I guess I think about my day. I'm thinking about you, mom. I'm thinking about my love … Continue reading Make A Wish →