Choking.

Time is a slow and steady suffocation. It took a little bit before I realized that I didn’t know what it looked like, to be sorry for taking up air. I apologized for being an inconvenience, yes. But the depth of my pain grows deeper as I reach for the light. I was so creative, … Continue reading Choking. →

I Am Listening.

I spent the first two years of my life screaming. My body was in pain, my stomach wasn’t equipped to handle the harsh wasteland it found itself in. Honestly, I feel like screaming is an appropriate reaction to existing. When I was done screaming, all I could do was watch the world pass me by, … Continue reading I Am Listening. →

Can I Get My Answers?

Don't even get me started with questions, I have way too many of them.I want answers. I have had so many questions bouncing around my brain, gaining speed and crashing out of my mouth. All my questions do is harm, destroy, and burn. I want you to put on your big girl pants and stare … Continue reading Can I Get My Answers? →

The Story of My Polaroid

Here's my sad excuse to why I own a Polaroid. If you are reading this, you won. The reason why I got into photography was because of you.Senior year of high school was one of the most trans-formative years of my life. Transitioning out of a relationship, finding out who truly is and isn't my … Continue reading The Story of My Polaroid →

Stuffed Animals from My Exes

I have two stuffed animals that were given to me from my exes. Both of their names start with the letter "C," so I guess that doesn't help to describe them. But I guess I can talk about the experiences that went on when I got them.I got a brown stuffed animal from my middle … Continue reading Stuffed Animals from My Exes →

Save myself

“I gave all my oxygen to people that could breatheI gave away my money and now we don’t even speak.I drove miles and miles, but would you do the same for me? Oh honestly?” . You’re speaking words masked with love, But I don’t feel warmth in your touch. It’s hard to believe what you … Continue reading Save myself →

Believer

I don't know about you, but I am a firm believer in change. I believe that everyone has the capacity to make change. Change, in a measuring stance, can be anywhere from making one choice between your favorite ice cream brand, or change leading up to a revolution. And I know that this is a … Continue reading Believer →

November 1st, 2014

November. The latest stage of Fall. My favorite season. This season always has a bittersweet undertone for me, as there are so many things to look forward to at this time of the year. But things I do not wish to face.Grandpa's death. November 29, 2008 was the day Grandpa died. I already cried out … Continue reading November 1st, 2014 →

Guilty as Charged

I am a sucker for pain. There, I admit it.I don't know why or how I can feel such comfort in pain, but I do. And to not misunderstand it as physical pain, but emotional torture. I am alive and I am aware that it is not a healthy thing to do, but sometimes I … Continue reading Guilty as Charged →