“I gave all my oxygen to people that could breatheI gave away my money and now we don’t even speak.I drove miles and miles, but would you do the same for me? Oh honestly?” . You’re speaking words masked with love, But I don’t feel warmth in your touch. It’s hard to believe what you … Continue reading Save myself
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All For Love
I wish I had the strength to continue writing about him in a poetic way, because maybe that would garner attention and love to me for writing something so romantic. It would keep the time I had with him in a neat little bubble that I could only look at with rose colored glasses. But, … Continue reading All For Love
So Mean
It’s not getting better. It’s probably not a good thing for the surrounding environment around me to reflect the raging storm inside my brain. Yet, I love it. See, everything is gloomy and drowning while the leaves of the trees scream in vibrant colors before they shrivel up and fall away from their life giving … Continue reading So Mean
Rise Again.
I know how it started. At least, think I do. I think I began to know too much. I started learning through trial and error that sometimes bad things happen repeatedly, and I can’t stop most of them. Then I remember those things I could have prevented, but didn’t. As I watch life pass by, … Continue reading Rise Again.
Broken Pieces
Dear Nate, I don’t think there was ever a time in my life where I felt more distressed. The amount of pain that I felt was so far beyond unbearable. I was ready to dip into Death’s sweet nectar. I lost my sanity. I lost myself. I broke myself. I found you before I broke, … Continue reading Broken Pieces
Deeper than Anger.
Part two. Rage is coming to a searing boil. To be perfectly blunt, it’s not my anger that concerns me, it’s the anger of white men. That’s because it’s not just anger. All I see in your eyes is pure, red rage. It makes me wonder what happens if I make you snap. How far … Continue reading Deeper than Anger.
“Bite Your Tongue.”
I wish I could refuse to tell you about the things I hold so close to my chest. I’ll keep telling you that I’m trying my best. I give to the darkest of thoughts a room and they never check out. you will believe the lies. you think I’m different, good. that makes me want … Continue reading “Bite Your Tongue.”
Frost Bitten
The cold is approaching once again. I feel the weight of all the decisions I’ve made this past year piling like snow on cold asphalt. So many thoughts race through my head and it makes me wish I could freeze my mind as I watch the rain hit the ground through my room or car … Continue reading Frost Bitten
City of Trees
No one can stand the harshness of the real world all the time. If you're stuck thinking about your reality for too long, you will probably shatter under its weight. You gotta have somewhere to go. You wanna know where I go? I always find myself in the City Of Trees where my nightmares and … Continue reading City of Trees
fake plants
I love fake plants. I have since I was a kid, I loved toting around a bundle of colorful fake flowers, carrying them everywhere I went. I'm not really sure why I even took an interest in them: maybe it's because I knew they wouldn't die like every large fuzzy leaf would after a few … Continue reading fake plants
Feeling Drives Work 