Choking.

Time is a slow and steady suffocation. It took a little bit before I realized that I didn’t know what it looked like, to be sorry for taking up air. I apologized for being an inconvenience, yes. But the depth of my pain grows deeper as I reach for the light. I was so creative, … Continue reading Choking. →

Happy Birthday

I’ve written countless drafts about you. A lot of them seem to state the same facts about you, because the one gift I want to give is honesty through my words about you. Writing about you is hard, because I know you know yourself well. What can I show you through a different set of … Continue reading Happy Birthday →

I Am Listening.

I spent the first two years of my life screaming. My body was in pain, my stomach wasn’t equipped to handle the harsh wasteland it found itself in. Honestly, I feel like screaming is an appropriate reaction to existing. When I was done screaming, all I could do was watch the world pass me by, … Continue reading I Am Listening. →

The Push Forward

8:40am, May 29th. 2020. It’s been one hour since I opened the store. I’m scrolling through Twitter and seeing all of the media supporting the #BlackLivesMatter topic. I’m liking and retweeting. I’m a little late to the conversation, but nonetheless my opinion is still important. As long as my words keep the conversation going, that’s … Continue reading The Push Forward →

Is this me?

I do not remember how I got here. I stand surrounded by a maze of mirrors. I do not hate the girl I see with an ocean of blonde just a few shades darker than white stitched to her scalp. I feel bad for her. Her features do not belong on her round cherub angel … Continue reading Is this me? →

Visualize

"Take a deep breath and close your eyes," the leader tells us.And I obey. I need to close my eyes for once. A setting where I can let my guard down, in public? I'm so in for it.I position myself in my chair, firmly planting my feet onto the ground, and then lightening the pressure … Continue reading Visualize →

Enough

If you want to know me, maybe you should first take note of the simple title I’ve laid out. No one should be confused, and I don’t want to leave anyone with out hope after reading my stories. Teachers are great bullshitters, and anything that you can justify adequately in the English and arts classes … Continue reading Enough →

Destiny

I think it was destiny for all this to play the way it plays out.Me meeting you. You meeting me. Our arguments, our compromises, our promises.It's kinda funny how it just... works.I don't think that there's an easier way to put it.I feel like even if we were two completely different people, we'd still have … Continue reading Destiny →

Another Timeline

During my Junior year of high school, I applied to be a part of the Volleyball team. I was incited as I saw an old friend of mine, Jestin, take his gym back with him across campus. I asked him if there were tryouts and he said that their was. With a quick and fast … Continue reading Another Timeline →

Defenses Down

I remember one day in my early high school years that we made a trip down to the store for a midday lunch and brought some soda's with us. We got a liter of Sprite, as that was a common favorite of Jared, Cameron, and mine.The scorching heat of the summer day won Jared's concentration, … Continue reading Defenses Down →